Bdae: 18 august 1992
-Perfectionist.
-Drama FREAK.
-Loves music.
-Loves XMCHORALE:)
E-mail:Madelene_or@hotmail.com
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* Saturday, August 18, 2007 *
Look at me
Do you think you see
Who i really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday
It's as if i play apart
now i see
if i wear a mask
i can fool the world
but i cannot fool my heart..
Suddenly felt that the lyrics of the song Reflection is kinda associated with my life right now. Really.. Maybe that is why i can put across the feelings of this song well..
Today is my birthday.. i'm not trying to announce to the whole world.. Just that why can't it be an ordinary day?? Why must you butt in and ruin it?? WHY CAN'T IT BE A NICE MEMORABLE ONE?? every other day is already bad. Why on earth do you wanna make it worse? I dunno.. I think i'm on the verge of breaking down. You know what?? I HATE YOU!!! Because of you, my life sucks. Period. How great it would be without your presence. Your presence makes me feel very STRESS OUT! why do you keep placing emphasis on my terrible results? Don'y you know that i wanna do well? I'm trying.. really.. But what do you expect from me when i can hardly concentrate with all your shoutings and all? One has already left you. Can't you learn from your mistakes? I know that you hate to admit it; you are regretting that you allowed him to move over didn't you?? Now that you have minimal contact with him, you're trying to make your relationship with him work? Let me tell you something. Once bitten twice shy. Do you expect him to come running back to you?? He has endured for such a long time.. And finally, just this year, he's able to break away. I envy him. I wanna go too. I love my grandparents more than you. Seriously, i think you SUCK. Almost all of my good days are ruined by you..
One day.. when i cannot endure any longer, i'm gonna go too. To somewhere without you. To somewhere so peaceful, so serene. And to somewhere where is filled with so much more love.. Do you know why the hell i'm stuck in my room at this moment?? It's all because of the piano and all my precious belongings. Especially my piano. My love for music has made me stayed. Not you. One fine day, I should really pack up, and leave. Go on to a place. My grandparents place.. though its only two blocks away, it's like a mile. I enjoyed every second there. I hate to leave and go back to a prison cell. I also wanna break free.
I can already imagine a world without you. I'll be able to excel so much more. I shall not have any more distractions. I wanna break free... I really wanna do so..
Maybe i'm too naive.. I was hoping for a change in you. I was hoping to be able to see you in better light. But i can't. If i excel in my studies, i'm gonna go on a scholarship. Somewhere far away. And i'm not gonna miss you. I'll have a job which will ensure that i'm always far from you. Say a pilot? I wanna live that dream. The other one is far too impossible. If the other one works out, I'll definitely go for it. If it doesn't i wanna be a pilot. I'll get myself a house. And live my life. Without you.
As for now, I just wanna fall into a deep sleep.. And hope that tomorrow will be a better day; i'll be able to escape from you. I need the peace. I need the serenity. It's essential for my well-being..
Just a piece of advice for you.. If you continue to be in this way, you'll lose everything. Everything that makes up your life..
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And to those whom have sent their birthday greetings, i thank you=)Special thanks to Vivian and Royson for the cute turtle, to Gracie for the wnderful words of encouragement on the card. And to all who had brighten up my life. Especially Jessica=), for always being there for me and being my best friend. And for the great high school musical scores. I'm so gonna learn the songs and play it for you. Last but not least, to Unique, Eliz, Wendy, and to all my dear friends in school, Thank You!!!
Have faith. Be brave.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Do you think you see
Who i really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday
It's as if i play apart
now i see
if i wear a mask
i can fool the world
but i cannot fool my heart..
Suddenly felt that the lyrics of the song Reflection is kinda associated with my life right now. Really.. Maybe that is why i can put across the feelings of this song well..
Today is my birthday.. i'm not trying to announce to the whole world.. Just that why can't it be an ordinary day?? Why must you butt in and ruin it?? WHY CAN'T IT BE A NICE MEMORABLE ONE?? every other day is already bad. Why on earth do you wanna make it worse? I dunno.. I think i'm on the verge of breaking down. You know what?? I HATE YOU!!! Because of you, my life sucks. Period. How great it would be without your presence. Your presence makes me feel very STRESS OUT! why do you keep placing emphasis on my terrible results? Don'y you know that i wanna do well? I'm trying.. really.. But what do you expect from me when i can hardly concentrate with all your shoutings and all? One has already left you. Can't you learn from your mistakes? I know that you hate to admit it; you are regretting that you allowed him to move over didn't you?? Now that you have minimal contact with him, you're trying to make your relationship with him work? Let me tell you something. Once bitten twice shy. Do you expect him to come running back to you?? He has endured for such a long time.. And finally, just this year, he's able to break away. I envy him. I wanna go too. I love my grandparents more than you. Seriously, i think you SUCK. Almost all of my good days are ruined by you..
One day.. when i cannot endure any longer, i'm gonna go too. To somewhere without you. To somewhere so peaceful, so serene. And to somewhere where is filled with so much more love.. Do you know why the hell i'm stuck in my room at this moment?? It's all because of the piano and all my precious belongings. Especially my piano. My love for music has made me stayed. Not you. One fine day, I should really pack up, and leave. Go on to a place. My grandparents place.. though its only two blocks away, it's like a mile. I enjoyed every second there. I hate to leave and go back to a prison cell. I also wanna break free.
I can already imagine a world without you. I'll be able to excel so much more. I shall not have any more distractions. I wanna break free... I really wanna do so..
Maybe i'm too naive.. I was hoping for a change in you. I was hoping to be able to see you in better light. But i can't. If i excel in my studies, i'm gonna go on a scholarship. Somewhere far away. And i'm not gonna miss you. I'll have a job which will ensure that i'm always far from you. Say a pilot? I wanna live that dream. The other one is far too impossible. If the other one works out, I'll definitely go for it. If it doesn't i wanna be a pilot. I'll get myself a house. And live my life. Without you.
As for now, I just wanna fall into a deep sleep.. And hope that tomorrow will be a better day; i'll be able to escape from you. I need the peace. I need the serenity. It's essential for my well-being..
Just a piece of advice for you.. If you continue to be in this way, you'll lose everything. Everything that makes up your life..
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And to those whom have sent their birthday greetings, i thank you=)Special thanks to Vivian and Royson for the cute turtle, to Gracie for the wnderful words of encouragement on the card. And to all who had brighten up my life. Especially Jessica=), for always being there for me and being my best friend. And for the great high school musical scores. I'm so gonna learn the songs and play it for you. Last but not least, to Unique, Eliz, Wendy, and to all my dear friends in school, Thank You!!!
Labels: some random thoughts
Have faith. Be brave.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
* Thursday, August 16, 2007 *
Like normal, it has been ages since i've blogged. but then i'll try my best to not let my blog rot. Rhymes? hehe.. Many special events has been happening this few weeks. Events that I shall remember for eternity=) ie. The ASEAN dance 2007=) ( really a lot of dancing involved!) and the upcoming concerts; Eliz's piano teacher's concert which is on this Sunday & Victoria Chorale concert, featuring Mr Yong=DD lols.. and i've gotten flu... sad=(
Here are some photos taken during the dance [from KaiHong=)]
Apart from the glitz and glamour of life, there's also the no-so-enjoyable side. I've got like quite a few test next wk. There's eng test, Chem SPA and geo test. And as for the tests that I've taken recently, I've gotta feeling that I'm gonna flunk A.maths trigo test. Yet another flunking MATHS paper.. I had a major mind block on that day.. As for the chem test that i've taken today, i'm not so confident of it.. Cus the questions are weirdly phrased. Had quite a bit of trouble figuring out what it was asking for.. Considered mind block?? I think i dun really like and get 'The mole'.. Oh yea, I'm so not looking forward to the A.maths FURHTER TRIGO test.zzz.. I CAN'T GET IT!!! * Pulls hair in frustration!!*
nvm.. I shall keep my cool. ehem..x) This sat i should be going to watch Secret with Jessica=D This is her 2nd time watching it.. She said it was really very nice=) so I have high hopes of the movie!! lols. 'zhi chi' Jay Chou^.~ afterall, it's his first time as a director. Wait, not only director. For this flim, he thought of the storyline himself too. So all in all, he put in a lot of effort(storyline, direct, act). So lets not put his efforts to waste=) hehe..
Gotta go now, anniyeong-he-ka-se-yo(goodbye in korean) ^.~
A few korean phrases to share with everyone:
-anniyeong-ha-seyo(hello)
-anniyeong-he-jumu-seyo(goodnight)
-kam-sa-ham-ni-da(thank you)
-Je-i-reum-niun.........imnida(my name is.........)
-ma-na-seo ban-gap-seum-ni-da(nice to meet you)
lols, note to unique: u can refer here x) the 'introduction of yourself' in korean=)) doubt u wanna learn.. Anyway, if anyone wanna learn some korean, u can approach me=D I know a little bit of korean. Really a little bit. But i'm still learning. Determined to learn KOREAN!!
KOREAN RULEZ!! kamsa ^.^ << short form for thank you.
Labels: *sneezes* cold.. bad one..
Have faith. Be brave.
Thursday, August 16, 2007